You try to shake it but it comes back.
It’s nagging comments
its persistence about the future
its nack for stating the obvious
Its not really a voice but a silent
nagger
who reminds you what you don’t have.
Its packed with acid so it corrodes existence
which is its primary function
to eat the goodness in the day
I am the host of such nag.
Because I allow it to thrive in the background though I say I don’t want it (so much for will)
So I have to fight it by ignoring it, deriving pleasure where I say am not to because of X.
Defeeating the illogical commentary
that things aren’t right when they are at their best
being at peace is an internal warfare
which marches to its own drumbeat
Learning to be ok with me and my lot
just as it is
it is an unsung ens