I have fallen in love with page 150 of Dew on the Thorn by Jovita Gonzáles1. It’s a chapter entitled The New Leader and it’s about the second Fernando of the Olivares family, born 1871. He is a half gringo and a half Mexican.
Fernando grew up, and realizing when very young that he had American blood, felt very different from the rest of the boys. He had a feeling of resentment against his heritage that made him feel he was an outcast among his friends. Doña Ramona’s teachings […] made him feel that he could never have anything in common with his American grandfather. (p. 150)
Gotta love the reverse mestizaje in play. The reverse crossborder where it is the gringo in us that yearns to crossover.
1 González, Jovita. Dew on the Thorn. Ed. José Limón. Houston: Arte Público Press, 1997.